Disclaimer!
This is not a post about: the negatives of smoking, the false positives of smoking, how to quit smoking, how to handle post quitting hardships, preaching over smoking/benefits of non-smoking, praising the non-smokers/blaming the smokers and anything else that would make the qualification and job of a specialist or the scope of an organization acting in this field. Seriously. This is just my right to freedom of speech, my admitting-writing-reading-and then acknowledge it all over again and this time it better be for good-therapy and a means to share my experience with the world. In other words: a blog.
This is not a post about: the negatives of smoking, the false positives of smoking, how to quit smoking, how to handle post quitting hardships, preaching over smoking/benefits of non-smoking, praising the non-smokers/blaming the smokers and anything else that would make the qualification and job of a specialist or the scope of an organization acting in this field. Seriously. This is just my right to freedom of speech, my admitting-writing-reading-and then acknowledge it all over again and this time it better be for good-therapy and a means to share my experience with the world. In other words: a blog.
When you quit smoking you better jot down, sooner rather than later, the truths about the death of your ultimate passion. They say it helps a lot when you see things black on white (or vice versa, right?). So, yeah, I decided to give it a try especially because my brain seems to function better (quite the opposite of what one would expect)these days and also because my blog suffers from lack of updates.
October 21, 2009 marks the beginning of the end of my affair with the cigarettes.Two weeks after taking and implementing the cruel yet necessary decision, the situation looks like this from my boots:
- I DO indulge in meals and sweets and drinks more often than I have ever been able to imagine and will ever admit to myself and others.
I am not a picky person when it comes to food. I can eat pretty much anything provided I am hungry. To correctly illustrate the current situation the last sentence should be rephrased as: I can eat pretty or ugly, more much than anything provided I can get my hands on it.
- I DO crave for things I've never enjoyed before;
I was never a fruits person: guess who's now an apple fan? Yup, moi. Milk was also not on my menu: guess who's a good girl now and drinks a cup of warm milk every evening? yes, still moi. Did I say I'm picky when it comes to tea? 2 T 2 22 pls! You name it, I drink it!
- I DO sweat like a paranoid while sleeping;
Sweat? when I'm not ill, not in summer, not practicing sports, not stressed, not ehuum, not anything? My sweet, first sign of healing up *big tears in the corner of my not-so-big eyes*
- I DO have the cigarette dream;
Oh yeaaaaah! My only guilty pleasure atm. (Colleague: - Fancy a fag? Me: - Had mine last night. It was a menthol.)
- I DO have a slower transit;
Best time to try the Danone Activia advertised miracle. Can I sue them on grounds of foul play if it does't work?
You don't know what lies 4 u
You're confused, you got no clue
Hello my name is Sue.
*mwaahahahahaha*
- I DO find the world looks different when not surrounded by smoke;
When at work, I won't ever feel again that I simply cannot concentrate anymore if I won't have a cig. Qualitative productivity checked
When at home, I have the time for things I've never had it before - where does all this time come from?
When out with friends, as much as incredible it could sound, I can and I do enjoy the time and no, I don't get bored; quite the opposite: my brain switches to the active mode and spits out means of entertainment as opposed to the passive mode it used to snooze in. Do not raise your flexible eyebrow; is just a simple process of changing the focus, a compensation for the lack of gesture. Does this mean that smarter people are defined by fewer gestures? Oaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
When with myself, I can finally listen to all that I have to say, to sort things out in my head, to take a decision and stick to it. Somehow I traded the patience I had for others for this baby right here called the patience for myself. *me cuddles with my precious lill patience* Buh bye patience, welcome patience. (Bring in the hard core challenges and let the era of long time objectives begin! And while at it, let me kiss that ADHD good bye.) Damn this quitting can lift my confidence so high that I won't ever need to waste my money on a boob job!*wheeeew*
- I DO have a positive influence;
Determined at least 1 person to quit too by mere quiting. Don't worry, I'll take special care not to become your worst nightmare non-smoker. I've seen a few too many.
- I DO have the support of both non-smokers AND smokers!
Even though the nons are more noisy than the others.
- I DO wish it would be easy;
But is not. Get it!
- I DO feel inspired;
Let it last forever!
Status of my smoke deprived existence:
Clean for: 2 weeks
- I DO crave for things I've never enjoyed before;
I was never a fruits person: guess who's now an apple fan? Yup, moi. Milk was also not on my menu: guess who's a good girl now and drinks a cup of warm milk every evening? yes, still moi. Did I say I'm picky when it comes to tea? 2 T 2 22 pls! You name it, I drink it!
- I DO sweat like a paranoid while sleeping;
Sweat? when I'm not ill, not in summer, not practicing sports, not stressed, not ehuum, not anything? My sweet, first sign of healing up *big tears in the corner of my not-so-big eyes*
- I DO have the cigarette dream;
Oh yeaaaaah! My only guilty pleasure atm. (Colleague: - Fancy a fag? Me: - Had mine last night. It was a menthol.)
- I DO have a slower transit;
Best time to try the Danone Activia advertised miracle. Can I sue them on grounds of foul play if it does't work?
*mwaahahahahaha*
- I DO find the world looks different when not surrounded by smoke;
When at work, I won't ever feel again that I simply cannot concentrate anymore if I won't have a cig. Qualitative productivity checked
When at home, I have the time for things I've never had it before - where does all this time come from?
When out with friends, as much as incredible it could sound, I can and I do enjoy the time and no, I don't get bored; quite the opposite: my brain switches to the active mode and spits out means of entertainment as opposed to the passive mode it used to snooze in. Do not raise your flexible eyebrow; is just a simple process of changing the focus, a compensation for the lack of gesture. Does this mean that smarter people are defined by fewer gestures? Oaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
When with myself, I can finally listen to all that I have to say, to sort things out in my head, to take a decision and stick to it. Somehow I traded the patience I had for others for this baby right here called the patience for myself. *me cuddles with my precious lill patience* Buh bye patience, welcome patience. (Bring in the hard core challenges and let the era of long time objectives begin! And while at it, let me kiss that ADHD good bye.) Damn this quitting can lift my confidence so high that I won't ever need to waste my money on a boob job!*wheeeew*
- I DO have a positive influence;
Determined at least 1 person to quit too by mere quiting. Don't worry, I'll take special care not to become your worst nightmare non-smoker. I've seen a few too many.
- I DO have the support of both non-smokers AND smokers!
Even though the nons are more noisy than the others.
- I DO wish it would be easy;
But is not. Get it!
- I DO feel inspired;
Let it last forever!
Status of my smoke deprived existence:
Clean for: 2 weeks
Also quit: sodas
Started: drinking tea and milk, eating fruits (and too much everything else!)
Practice: none (must absolutely go back to practice; and, if possible, more than before)
Kilos: 1 kg gained; *sigh* here we go...
Feel free to share your experience whether you are a smoker, ex-smoker or a non-smoker living in the world of smokers.
More on this subject, to come.
Started: drinking tea and milk, eating fruits (and too much everything else!)
Practice: none (must absolutely go back to practice; and, if possible, more than before)
Kilos: 1 kg gained; *sigh* here we go...
Feel free to share your experience whether you are a smoker, ex-smoker or a non-smoker living in the world of smokers.
More on this subject, to come.
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